Back Into Hell

[jiml]

I'm back again.
My Gran would say that I'm 'in and out like a dogs d*ck'. That's Yorkshire humour for you.  
It's a good thing that I have all these posts to read as it helps me to keep up with myself.
Re: Psoriasis. It's better. Just a few tiny pustules, still dry but I'm starting to keep up with the moisturising.
A friend of mine said something the other week that made me stop in my tracks. I mentioned that I have this annoying habit of picking & scratching and not keeping on top of it. She said she sometimes wondered if I was actually self harming (I have a history). It made me take a step back and I could see her point.  
Anyway, I finally accepted that I need counselling and have been to the docs to arrange it. I've also been prescribed sleeping tablets to help get a handle on the insomnia. She only prescribed 3 which is fine because I am aware that they are just meant as a temporary measure. The real issue is in my head hence the need for counselling.
My boy is going back to school on Monday. Just mornings though at the speech and language unit. This has taken some weight off my mind as, although I'm confident in my abilities to home school any subject, they have specialisms that I don't have. Plus (and I hope this doesn't sound selfish) it gives me the mornings to concentrate on my own needs. I've booked in for a haircut, am meeting a good friend for brunch and am going to try a yoga class next week.    
And on a surprising note (to me) I seem to be brooding a lot less over the ex. We're still on good terms but I don't seem to be getting that horrible, abandoned feeling lately.
Could this be a corner turned?

EDIT: Forgot to say, last week I actually got on a bus and went into town.....twice! Go me.  

Great to read all that Brighteyes and good to hear you sounding positive, it looks as if you are getting your life back on track, and I hope the counselling will help you get through the insomnia, perhaps the three sleeping pills will be enough to break the cycle of poor sleep...

Another positive is you will be having some "me time" whilst your boy is at school, getting on a bus again last week was a giant step forward I'm smiling while I read that, knowing that a few weeks ago you feared leaving the house...so   well done you.

Not brooding about the ex ( I read that wrong the first time as sex) is another big positive .....all small steps on the road to recovery   keep up the positivity

Nice new avatar picture