Wed-16-05-2012, 03:25 AM
Good evening everyone. I have always felt completely on my own since I was diagnosed with psoriasis five years ago when I was 18. Today I felt like the future was entirely hopeless and to continue on was a difficult idea to comprehend. A google search brought me to this forum and after reading posts of people with such widespread and painful psoriosis that putting on clothes is difficult, I began to feel like my story did not even compare and wondered if I even belonged. But somehow, in reading the posts I felt some kind of hope. If nothing else I felt empowered just knowing that someone else may go through their day with some of the same thoughts and experiences that I have. My outbreaks are mainly concentrated on my scalp and genital regions. While by using protopic ointment and clobex spray I am somewhat able to control the day to day discomfort of the outbreaks, I find myself unable to stop the continual feeling of helplessness. At it's worst, there are times when I feel worthless and left out from being a human. But being able to say this does give me comfort. And I must apologize for my complaining, because I know that there are many people who can't even walk out their door without their psoriosis causing great pain or being witnessed by everyone they come in contact with.