Frustrated to the max .. methotrexate ?

[Smegs]

Thank you for all of your responses . 
I do agree the self medicating was rather stupid , I am just so frustrated right now . 
The derm I had has left the hospital so now I don't have one .. have just been placed with a nurse who to be fair really doesn't care at all . 
I kind of feel if they had gave me sooner / more regular appointments ( once a month maybe ) and increased by 2.5mg a time the I would be on more mg's by now anyway and then maybe the drug would be working steadily .. as I say right now it has got so much worse . 

Even the mention of me trying something else they will not entertain 

Coming off everything completely is fine but then when I get to the flare stage it takes literally forever to get back on the dermatologist's books .. really don't know what to do 
Right now I just feel like I can't deal with this anymore . My scalp is so sore and bleeds .. no matter what I use on it , it doesn't make the slightest difference . I use coconut oil every other night but all that does is leave with with sore boils and spots on the nape of my neck , back and head 
Skin is sore on my knees and bathing the little one is just hard . Feel like giving up right now 
Thank you all again